Peace

You can call me

JAB

Shaik Fuad ;)

18 goin 19
16 Dec 1989
2nd yr in Millenna Institute

NOTE THAT...
getting to know me is a game of chance.
there are risks involved.
and im not here to impress.

Thank You

Insyirah
Fifi
hidayah
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fafa
shafiqah
filzahh
zahidah
todoshi
ainiwo
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Celiaaa
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Shazwani
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November 2008
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April 2009
June 2009

I Would If I Could

It seems so near yet its so far

Silhouettes of you everywhere I go

Reminding me of who I really love

Sorry to those I have hurt

Now I understand the feeling

Technology helps but adds on to it

Can humans pass through the optic fibres?

Technology is not that great after all

Talking crap becoming a norm

Bear with it to those I preach it to

But what can I do?

Not everyone is willing to lend a listening ear I assume

I do not care but I care

That night where she left was a night not to forget

Because perhaps it is a night I could not remember

I couldn't remember the times spent playing fire against fire

Arguments may not be music to the ears

But what I remember is just good memories!

She's the nicest to me so far

Not that the rest is not nice

But hers is different

Different people separated by differing nice?

She's here, She's there, She's everywhere

Now love songs that were once mushy are now quite ermm..good?

Those who are not in love won't understand

Those who are won;t either

Because you're not in love with Shanie Foo

Shanie Foo, Its not that I do not want to be beside you over there..

I Would If I Could. :(

Till here,

Jab Learns To Blog.

Labels: Days without you

Oh! Is that right?

Its been awhile since I blog. Guess i drifted away from technology for quite some time. And NO! I'm not gonna post anything about my relationship. Its not because things have been bad but its too wonderful to be described here. Summarising it, she has been the most wonderful thing so far. Ah sweetness sets in. :)

Most inportantly, I wish to talk about something here. Its sad to see my blog posting such mean stuffs but hey! This is a MUST! For those who knows the story, I'm sure you guys will find this very interesting. No No..I'm not gona ask you guys to sit back and enjoy your popcorn or whatsoever. That's lame. Just read and evaluate. First thing first, I must say that I am BLINDINGLY DUMB. I failed to see that someone is talking behind my back without me knowing it and there I was thinking everything was back to normal. Stop all this can? You anti-socialise yourself. Oh c'mon guys! Stop trying to be diplomatic here and be too nice to hear both sides of the story yada yada yada! You don;t know what happen at the start. You did not experienced it. You don't know her. I may sound biased here but if she could do this to US, by all means she could do it to you! The anti-socialising did not begin this year for your info. Not even during last year's holidays! It has been happening. Only now..other parties are involved for god knows what reasons. I just dont get it. You put my partner in this story? How many people you want to get all this involve in? I thought it was just between the three of us? How come now its getting on to more people? You are now friending those friends that you dissed before? How ironic? You complained to people who asked you what went wrong? You know both sides of the story? First thing you're involved in this big time! How can we be sure that your other side of the story is true? Fuck all this shit talk and just get on with your life! You dug your own grave. You attracted the controvesies. You admitted you started it. Why didnt you end it? Its normal for people to react if they're hurt. That's a norm. But you took it hard and tried to win a point by trying to pull people by your side and making them symphatise with you? Im sure you would say "no..i dont need their sympathy". But why did you tell them then? You know the ones you bitch about will bitch back about you. But who bitched first? Who kick us away when we didnt even know what the hell was going on? Who started posting F&R all over? Wtf? You may get people to lend you a ear and listen to you and yada yada..but its not gonna work on those who knows you best. You said I'm a liar? You defended her on you blog? Then how bout you? You did not lie? Now are you with her? No! Its back to square one between you and her. Again..wtf? Shit..get a hold of yourself. I admit I'm not a good guy.But that doesnt make you any better aite? People know me for who I am. For you? You keep changing. You may be with this someone and bitch about the rest. I understand bitching is a norm among people. But didnt you think you're taking things abit too far? You are becoming too paranoid. The matter was small but you made it big. Our friends, I admit, are nice friends. They will be there for us no matter what. But stop taking advantage of them please just to prove that your right. I'm not saying I didnt made a mistake. I'm ready to admit mine. Are you?

I know your a female, that is why you bitch instead of confronting. I'm bitching now coz i aint wanna confront you coz I'm a male and its not right for me to talk harshly with you coz most probably that is what gonna happen. In the end, your still my friend and i do remember the times when you are nice to me or whoever. But then this thing happened and its being dragged across way too far for me to accept. I dont care whether I'm a minor or major role in this story. Ultimately, I'm involved. So i am fully ready to take things out with whoever involved. We'll sit together and talk. No lies. Nothing. Results may be nasty and some friendship may end. But this is a practical move. I think this is the best. And to those who are not happy with i said in this blog may approach me. I will rationalised it with you despite whoever side you're on. It doesnt matter coz all in all this is about friendship.

After this post, I will get hate remarks and negative impressions. But if its for the best for those I know, then i do not care one bit. So please please make up your idea and do what's best.

Till here,

Jab Learns To Blog

Labels: Be brave enough.

Acidic

The hopes in life was shaky and could fall

The future even seemed so darn bleak

But you came and answered my call

Now I would catch you even if your touch is acidic

Your flair and grace amazes me

Your warm hugs and kisses melts me

Even if its dark..I will still be able to see

As your acidic touch doesn't blind me

Previous dates needed a thousand ringers

Just to make me fall deeper eventually

Its different now as your smell still lingers

Even if your not there around or beside me

Times spent are wonderful and fresh

Especially lying at the watermelon gazing above

You helped me a lot even when I'm out of cash

Now I will repay it back with sincerity and love

I may lack the credentials as a dream guy

I may not even get to see you much

But just trust me and we wont live a lie

Something may hurt me but the love wont budge

Because I have made up my mind

I have even made up my heart

No one has ever been so kind

Your aura will always run in my blood

My promise to you will always stand

Never will I back off from this feeling

Will still adore you no matter what or when

I will prove it to you as seeing is believing

So Shanie..You just hang in there

And I even wrote your name here with no fears

Because whatever people say and think, I don't care

I will try my best to put a sparkle in your eyes instead of tears

So smile upon reading this

As your smile is special and sweet

Read everything and believe this

The road is ours and for us to lead

Just hold my hand and seal your trust

Never look back and drive on

I am sure that we will have a blast

Any hurting memories will be long time gone

Till Here,

Jab Learns To Blog

Labels: U make me fall

Hey YOU!

Hello to all..

Welcome to another segment of my dissing session! :)

Dissing session is defined as saying very mean but true things regarding someone who may be a bitch or an asshole

So..those who reads this and laugh along shows that you guys are not involved :)

Those who reads it and understands and nod along shows you guys are not involved too! :)

BUT those who reads it and feel a little pinch of guilt and furthermore if you know me..then most probably I am talking about you! Awwwww.....too bad because you have just been dissed!

And you should count your lucky stars that I am doing it here!

You aint want me to say all this straight to your face!

Firstly..I understand that I am not that great as a guy..I have my flaws..and I make my mistakes..But one thing I truly understand and respect is friendship..

I aint no hypocrite..I may say bad things about someone but when I dont have friends..I dont go to that someone I always bitch about and act as if nothing happen..Normal friends are normal friends..I treat everyone the same..Once you are my friend..I will share laughters and tears with you..I may be irritating and all..but when you are sad..most probably you will laugh when you are with me..and I dont go around telling others about my friends flaws..Isnt that simple enough for you guys to understand? I am not a hypocrite..That is done..a brief intro about me..

Now for those im referring too..I'll use "You" because all those I cancelled out cant be reading this all at once in one room -_-...ok..You are a hypocrite..You aint know nothing about yourself..You think you are so hot and popular..but guess what? You are not! You speak out one thing and do the other..If your a girl..then a dick will probably fit nicely in your mouth..And if your a guy.,a dick will still be the thing that will fit it nicely..OmG..Fuad! Why are you saying all this? I dont care if my blog is banned..its for all to see..im going to put a full stop at it...to all those motherfuckers who may think that they gain something from ditching a friend that was once so close to you..then you are wrong! You were so close together..like OMG WE ARE SO GOING TO BE BESTFRIENDS FOR LIFE! Well guess what? That sucks...fakes..talking cock ( told ya a dick will fit nicely in ur mouth) Omg..go get something better to do..furthermore..you should atleast tell that someone what has he or she done to make you feel so angry..,isnt that what good friends are for? But just acting as if nothing happened and pretend like you dont care is not fair asshole..Dont you care for your friends feelings? Do we as friends need to explicitly show that we care to prove you that we do??? Get a life! Or again..get a dick! and put it nicely in your mouth

I am a mat..i talk like one..i act like one..but i never show it to you..i will have fun with you..but if you think doing all these is god damn great..then dont you try talking to me..coz i will make sure that you dun disturb me or anyone that is on my side..you think we care huh? we fucking dont..we are still alive without you! Fucking asshole..you think you are so great? The people you once bitch is the one you are close now! How fucking hypocrite can you be?? For once..dont make things go only your way..when it doesnt you start realising that your current friend is of no use..fuck off..practise what you bloody preach..I do admit at first I may feel guilty..like i have done something wrong..But what is it asshole? Tell me..show me im wrong! Dont you have the guts to tell me? You just act as if nothing happened and expect me to come and ask you? Hell! I dun even give a damn to you in the first place..anyone on my side may treat you as a gdfriend..but guess what..i can show him or her the real meaning of friendship..no matter how mat i am..no matter how other diss me..I fucking understand friendship and i will forever respect it..you dont..thus you are not worth a crap..

So if u felt the pinch..what are you gonna do now? tell others about my flaws?? go ahead..tell them what you want..you will know one day how an asshole you are and you will get your bloody retribution...I dun give a damn about what you going to say after this..guess what? It wont work..trust me..im a sweetalker remember?? If that is what you think i am..then i bloody going to be one..you wanna play this game? you aint want me to play along..you will regret it...do not dare to hurt my friends..get me? Go have fun in what you are doing,,whoever you are with..We dont care..just dont try hurting my friends..Im the one who said all this..confront me..if not..lastly..you can just put a dick nicely in your mouth as that is where all the dicks in the world deserved to be for a long time..regardless your a male or female..

Ok guys.,done..heh,,i am a nice guy la..just dun lose my trust..dun gain my hatred,,and dun hurt those i love..avoid all this..and the world will be a much simpler and fun place to be in!! :))

Till Here,

Jab Learns To Blog

Labels: Fuck off

You Are Wonderful

Just by hearing you saying hi

Will put a smile on my face

Turns the world upside down feeling so high

I lost everything as you set my heart ablaze

Making you laugh is hard but worthwhile

As your laughter lights up my day and night

Waiting to hear you seems long although awhile

Even the deepest feelings seem so hard to hide

If this is infatuation so be it

It is too beautiful to let go

Now starting to fall deeper into the pit

But its too dark and I don't know

Uncertainty sets in each time I think deep

You are happily together with someone great

Thinking of this will make it hard to sleep

But I guess I should leave it all to fate

Whatever may occur in the mean time

I will think twice before committing like a fool

But just for the record, this girl is sublime

She has been great..she is wonderful

Till Here,

Jab Learns To Blog

Labels: You Look Wonderful Tonight

True Dreams, Continue Dreaming

The first day at a new environment

It was awkward and it was weird

The days that will pass will be more of hell than heaven

Unable to adapt to it, that was what I feared

Then she walked by

With the amazing grace and flair

Suddenly felt so high and fly

The eyes, the nose and oh yes..the HAIR!

She was almost perfect from top down

She has this stare that can make you nailed

She unknowingly transformed a smile from a frown

That is what she do and amazingly never failed

How to smile when she looks too stunning

How to talk when she doesn't seem interested

But then there was this new beginning

A simple chat with an outburst of feelings that was vested

She has a sense of humour

She is a smart girl I'm sure

A stuck-up girl is just a rumour

But then would still not go for her

Its complicated when it comes to religion

Furthermore we are of different season

And oh yes she is also taken

She's blissfully attached and that's the main reason

Am just happy to sit and stare

Catching glimpses from the corner of the eye

It will be better and it will be fair

Cannot expect to go full force and live a lie

Dreams do come true

Only now the dream is to be continued

I do not mind as its better to leave a clue

She will understand this, she's not that shrewd

This is so dreeeeaaaaaaaaaammaaaaaaaaay!!! hahaha!

Till Here,

Jab Learns To Blog

Untitled

Its been awhile hasn't it?

Because nothing happened

Life still full of the same shit

Its still miles of from the doors of heaven

I gave it a chance once more

She did not take it that sincerely

What can i say anymore

Hopes are meant to be dashed honestly

Certain period of loneliness are dealt alone -_-

That looks pretty stupid from here

Full of contacts but who to phone?

Can anyone understand this fear

I got a few in my mind

Whom I know can make it work

Please understand me as I'm still stuck behind

I will still refuse as her shadow still lurk

I seriously don't know who i am

What i am doing and why

Trying to pimp my life with fame and glam?

Not to that extent and that is not a lie

I want it simple and i want it good

But i am not being bloody fair

Do i deserve kindness like i would?

Do i sometimes look like i even care?

She may be interesting at first

I may fall for her at best

But even she cant quench the love thirst

What the hell do I want? That's the greatest test

A test I should overcome on my own

No one shall bloody interfere

Too much hurting in listening to my own tone

I fucking hate myself do you all hear?

I don't usually write the truth in this bloody blog

But all this is freaking true

You guys are much better and have a life to rock

What do i got? Nothing and i don't even have a clue

No one can tell me what i have

No one can tell what I've got

I did not steal yet I feel i committed theft

I'm fucking my life up and that is what I thought

A long time ago only i did not realise

How time has passed and how it flies

Life is still e same shit

And I'm not doing anything much about it

I feel I've done something yet I've not

What more should i do?

It still the same no matter how well thought

Life is not that colourful except for black and blue

Do not even bother asking

It is a total waste of time

I will still act like there is nothing

But now u know my life is cheap..worth just a few dime

sorry to all those i have hurt and gave hope..sorry to friends whom i may burden..sorry to everyone i know..sorry..

Till Here,

Who learns to Blog?

Labels: who's jab?